Friday, August 25, 2017

Dream Journal

I am in the library. My head is spinning from gazing upon what must be thousands of books.

There is an older gentleman who moves forward towards me. He smiles as if he knows me.

"Do I know you?" I ask him.

"Yes, yes you do!" he replies. It is funny how I can hear him speak, but his lips aren’t moving.

I am awakened.

Who is he? How do we know each other?
Every time I have remembered my dreams I have been alone.
Has he been there with me all along?


Saturday, August 19, 2017

Another Fight

Danika and I are at odds with one another, again. I felt it was time we sat down together. To explain to her how I really have been feeling lately.

I feel the strain on our friendship, but we also live together so it makes this situation even harder. We struggle to speak, and I can see the disappointment in her eyes.

I have so much going on in my life right now, and she knows all of this.

I was once perfect, but now I am breaking ever so slowly.


Saturday, August 12, 2017

Small Groups

Danika manages to drag me to another small group study. I go just to appease her.

Somehow she has her life together, and I don't. I had my whole life planned out. Every year, goals were set and met. Accomplished.

This year has seen its ups and downs. The people at these meetings do not know how I feel. They don't care about me. They don't even know me.

I am not Danika. I am Lily.


Saturday, August 5, 2017

Mixed Up Emotions

Mom calls, and she has excitement in her voice! Good news! A new medicine! A trial, of course, but certainly worth a shot, according to Mom!

I had my first fight with Danika, at the end of party of all places! Everything was great until some guy offered me a drink. Danika is not my mother, and I am not a child.

For the first time, I could breathe, and my mind wasn't flooded with doubt and darkness.

I liked the drink; it was sweet. Danika tried to take it out of my hands and ended up spilling it all over herself. She then tried to get me to leave the party, but I was finally having fun and I wasn't about to stop.

I haven't spoken to her yet, but I am going out again tonight with some new friends.